One day your heart will break, it might be multiple things or just one thing but what we can all agree on is it will suck!
I am unsure how people feel about a post that is personal but I guess maybe one day someone will read this and relate. It’s a story about a girl who will one day kick ass.
I found as I grew older that I learned how to behave better, to deal with things that hurt more discreetly, still not in the best way as I am very vocal and I like to scream sometimes and throw tantrums but who doesn’t enjoy the occasional rant?
THANK GOODNESS for music. Getting lost in a great song as if you are in a movie and this song is playing so that the audience can feel the true emotion of your character. Well my character at this very moment is the sad, broken hearted, little girl. Picture this scene (somethings added for effect) The boy who held her heart is his hands, who protected her from all the evils and scary monsters of the world and all the things that could hurt her is gone, the fighting else where never stops, the whispers behind her back grow into screams. All these things are racing through her head, it’s raining, she is crying and walking alone, all odds against her and BAM this incredible song comes on and you are sitting in the audience and the goose bumps are running down your arms because you feel all her emotions. Some people are sitting there thinking “
what a sad person, breaking down over a guy“.
Others that have been watching a bit closer are thinking “she has been through hell and the love of her life has walked away, she’ll be ok though, she has to be“.
But what is most important is what she is thinking. She is thinking “Remember all those people who thought you would fail? Remember all the bad things people have said about you? Remember the pain people have put you through? Well girl, you haven’t crumbled yet and now is the not the time“. And her tears eventually dry up, the sun rises the next day and the birds sing. That is how the heroin of this story kicks all her own demons in the ass.
Even though the world she loved
It won’t ever be the way it was
And his heart of stone left her’s breaking
– Mayday Parade “The Silence”
Some people are sitting there thinking she is too ok, why is she so chilled? They dated for so long and here she is, drinking and laughing? While others are sitting there waiting for her to break down, she has done it before. Wait ’till he is back and then we will see the real drama.
Well she is motivated, she is strong because every kick in the ass, every bruise on her heart, every seed of doubt planted in her mind has prepared her for today and tomorrow and the next months or even years ahead. Even when she is weak at the knees her strong will will pick her back up and push her to keep going.
She has taken a long way to find her passion and her future and at a point she thought she would never find it but her faith was always there, even when it was minimal it was there and we will watch her in a few years, beautiful, confident, striving, believing and most importantly still living her life and laughing no matter the difficulties faced.
– Mayday Parade
Find your inner beauty, write your own script, trust in yourself and never lose faith.